Happy New Year!
2020 was truly filled with change. I’m not even talking about COVID and all that came with that change in how I live, how I work and how I play. The first changes were personal. My son graduated in May of this year and had an opportunity to move immediately after graduation to San Diego to play music – his passion in life. He went from living at home (just waiting to leave) to living on his own and adulting and loving his life. I have to say as sad as I was to see him leave, I was also the proud momma and still am. (hang tight for the next part of the story).
With Justin graduating and moving on to his next path in life, my partner and I decided to take the leap and move in together. I left living on my own to again sharing my day-to-day life with someone else. I am so fortunate to have met someone post divorce who I am able to share my day-to-day life. After spending 5 years commuting an hour to see one another, it has been a gift to get to share space.
Even with COVID, I was able to complete my 12 years of training yoga teachers through the Pranakriya School of Yoga Healing Arts in a way that allowed me to share my love of yoga with other teachers who will carry on the work that I started. Thank goodness for ZOOM! I am now officially retired from Pranakriya and training teachers.
I have opened a beautiful office in Los Alamos where I feel comfortable to share Thai Yoga Massage and Yoga Therapy with new clients, while also having a space to practice on my own and continue my Yoga with Jacci work.
COVID gave me the opportunity to explore how yoga can still be deep and life changing via Zoom. I started offering a few weekly, live yoga classes for my students to explore how live yoga online worked. Surprisingly, it was still a powerful tool for connection, community and self-study. As such, I launched At Home Yoga & Well BE-ing in September with a group of like minded yoga teachers. We are now offering live yoga, fitness and wellness classes every week to people from all over the country. It is a gift to stay connected. It is a gift that COVID has given me.
What Didn’t Go So Well This Year?
Of course, COVID happened.
I traveled to San Diego in March for work. Upon returning, I became violently sick, all prior to any available COVID testing. I don’t know if I have ever felt so sick. Thank goodness for Justin, who supported my healing. Based on all my symptoms, the length of my illness and my post-illness symptoms, I’m sure I had COVID. I am one of the lucky ones. Since then, I have had friends and family members who have friends and family members who have died of this illness. It is nothing to take lightly.
COVID also impacted my son’s decision to stay in San Diego. There really weren’t music opportunities for a new band during this time. As such, he has chosen a different path and is now living and working in Oregon, in the hopes of attending University of Oregon in the fall of 2021. As a parent, it’s hard to see your child’s hopes and dreams crushed especially when they are a 1000 miles away. Changing directions and being resilient is important, but having to learn so much at 18 is tough. I know he will continue to thrive, but I didn’t expect the first heartache to happen so soon. Thank you COVID, not really.
A trip to hike the West Highland Way with my partner to celebrate our 5th year anniversary was cancelled due to COVID, as were all my work trips to Kripalu and other yoga studios.
Although I have opened my office in Los Alamos this year, it has been start and stop as our Governor has, like others, activated Stay At Home orders which keep me from working with clients. It’s hard to launch an in person, hands-on business in the middle of a pandemic.
Our beloved dog, Ash, died unexpectedly this year. He was the constant in Justin’s life, traveling with him whether he was at my house or his dad’s house. He might have driven me nuts every once in a while (okay, maybe more than once in awhile) but he was also the most loving dog, always ready for a good snuggle. His leaving broke all of our hearts. I still miss him and I know Justin does too.
I didn’t do as well as I would have liked on finding my work/life balance. It is something I am continually working on as my life is always changing.
What Am I Working Towards?
Well, ask anyone and I am always working on something.
I am continuing my journey of “enough” and not taking on too much. That being said, I do have a few fun plans for 2021. First, I am dedicating the year to self-care and self-acceptance/love for myself and for others, especially for women. I will share this in various ways – through blogs, social media posts, gatherings, workshops and retreats.
I will be trying to run my Yoga & Self-Care Retreat for Women again this year – October 2-7, 2021 in Santa Fe. We’ll see what happens. It could be a great way to move into this time of year next year.
Starting in January, I will be leading a monthly Gathering of Women: Connection, Support & Practice, a support group for women. I am really excited to work with women from all walks of life on self-care and self-love.
I will also continue to work on building my in-person and online yoga therapy business to support others in their healing.
Personally, I am training again to hike the West Highland Way and working on keeping ME at the top of my list.
It has been a year filled with change, pain, and discomfort, but it has also been a year filled with joy, happiness and connection in ways I didn’t think possible. Would I want to do it all again? NO. Am I looking forward to flipping the calendar? YES. However, I feel good about so many things that have happened this year and I hope you can take some time to answer these questions and feel the same.
Wishing you all the best for the remainder of 2020 and through 2021.